Did you say ‘Love’?
“It’s been six weeks and we haven’t seen each other all this while. Called him like 15 times today…he was simply unreachable. God knows where he has been doing what!! Why is it that he always makes me feel like I’m the one who’s freaking crazy about all this!
Whether he loves me or not, I don’t know anymore…life’s getting tougher…I’m afraid!”
Reading that scribbled page from my friend’s 14 years old cousin’s diary, lying randomly under a pile of many other scribbled writings, I was rendered all perplexed. It was yet another page of her diary all scribbled with repeated scenes, characters and act from history. I was wondering if she even knows the exact meaning of what we fantasize about the most today…’Love’. Sincerely, even living out one fine quarter of my life hasn’t presented any clear definition of Love. It’s been a tradition of our times perhaps…we fall in love and then we fall out of it and the cycle continues.
For some it’s a magical feeling…for others it’s peer pressure, status, while for some it’s merely a deal! The worst part being we don’t even bother to give a second thought about what exactly we want and what exactly we are doing before entering the game. We don’t really have many reasons when we fall for it but to justify ourselves we are always flooded with enormous excuses, most of them concentrating on the fault of the partner. The basic instinct being we feel at loss to understand the difference between infatuation and love, when there is a fine line between these two conditions!
There are lots of people around and many opinions and doubts. We have each got something to suggest about the do’s and don’ts of a relationship making us feel more nervous...and even one negative reply or no show of our partner makes us go all nuts!!! And then we get tired of pining for long intervals, apart…just waiting for that moment to happen when we could feel it again, reassuring ourselves about the little something that’s left between the two of us, as most of it gets filtered out by the specifications and parameters of opinions and suggestions.
The root problem of this situation is that we stay confused…we keep doubts in our heads and we entertain misconceptions. Being in love doesn’t have anything swinging in the middle, either you are in it or you are not. I do agree with the fact of the fantastic feeling of being-young-and-in-love scenario…but somehow I feel if there’s something called ‘Love’ then a thing called ‘Logic’ exists as well. It feels so bad to see people crying and wasting precious hours of their lives to get the authentication of the title of ‘in a relationship’. Nobody out there is actually concerned about what one does with one’s life apart from his/her parents who are actually biologically programmed to shower ample affection.
We live in a more or less cynical world and there are things you got to learn by yourself…nobody else can tell you…nobody else can teach you! Every time it’s your choice, it’s your arena…how you play depends upon you! Just one thing…there’s no sense in rushing in for things!! It’s not once in a lifetime kind of opportunity. Sometimes mistakes cost way more than what you can afford…what we always need is a little more time…time to understand, time to grow up, time to get mature!
This is a guest post by Kriti Bhatnagar, visit her blog: http://just-a-little-time.blogspot.in/, to read more articles.